Gypsy Jenski

( CDJ Directory )

There are many thought's plaguing me at this time, many things I need to work out and get off my chest... So I will break it down into sections, and lay everything out, essentially bearing my soul.

( Me focusing on Self )

So, currently in WoW land, it is the 'Holiday' for Warsong Gulch. Ok, great, give me nice PvP exp for my 79 Hunter, right? Ok, so good experience, but it is irritating to no end. Are people stupid or what?

Ok, so, one would think that when you go to capture the flag you should have a group with you, because anyone worth their salt are going to have at least two people camping at the flag. In that group it would probably be good to have one healer to keep the flag carrier alive. And then, back at our base, have at least two people camping out there. And then the rest can play mid field, because we all know midfield is where flag carriers get stuck more often than not.

Does that not sound reasonable?

I am Horde, and all of us Horde hate the AF because, my god, does Blizzard ever favor them. So please, when someone in a BG suggest a plan that sounds reasonable, please go with it. Don't go 'nawww' and go off to do your own thing while ignoring them. You do it enough times and they just might let you die the next time you're in a pinch.

F*ck the AF and f*ck Warsong Gulch! -roars, feels better, goes about her day-

I may be young, but there are some things I have come to know, and know well. Respect is something earned, something to be given to those have have proven themselves and to never slack on giving once it has been earned. Also that honor is, sadly, an almost lost concept.

Being a member of a coven, I have always given my elder's the respect they are due, for it is something they have earned as they have studied and reached levels of knowledge I have yet to reach. They have much to teach me, and I know and accept this. I also respect my fellow coveners, for they have earned that respect by dedicating themselves to learning the same material, same path, that I have. They are pursuing the same road I am, and if I wish for them to respect me, then I better give them respect in return.

I wish I could say that I do not know how anyone could possibly disrespect their elders and coveners, but I know all too well that it is possible, for I once became blind-sided by a freedom I had not tasted since I became pregnant with my precious daughter, Bethany, who rests with her great-grandfather in Annwyn. I should a great deal, at least where myself is concerned, of disrespect to the priestess of my group. As I look back now I am faced with the shame of my childish actions, but I am learning and fixing this part of me. I am working diligently in building back up the trust that was lost.

So with that said, I will say that I can understand how it can happen, but I fail to see how such actions can continue. When one has been told multiple times (bear in mind it took my disrespect being pointed out to me once for me to reign myself back in) that they are disrespecting their elders and coven along with bringing shame unto themselves, how can they continue on with the same actions? I understand that some things become so ingrained into their personality that it takes time, and much work, to get over it, but at least then you can tell that they are trying. I am speaking of the people who do not even try to change this disrespect.

I am guessing this is due to a lack of honor that the majority of people have nowadays. A need to ignore what they do not like, to pretend that there are outside sources to what they are experiencing, essentially laying the blame elsewhere. They do not take responsibility for their own actions, and they are incapable of being truthful to themselves. This, to me, denotes a lack of honor to an extent. How can you truly be an honorable person when you lie even to yourself? When you ignore the screams of help from your subconscious?

All this reminds me of one card from my Faeries' Oracle, by Brian Froud. Gwatcha is a faerie who will forcefully breakdown the walls restraining us. So, our happy little delusions would be taken down by this little faerie without a second thought, but he does it because it is what we need to have done so we can advance on and make our way to a happier place. But really, why wait for something like that to happen? I guess it is a human fault that we are capable of falling into our lies and being content to stay there.

What am I trying to get at? I do not even know. I guess I just needed to get some things off my chest.

( Second Chara, Sons of Cain, Gavin Avery Application )

( Son's of Cain Application )

( Kato de Archis )

Ok... I have to share this because I damn near chocked on the water I was drinking when I read it. So I'm reading a manga called Abiru Junjou, a Yaoi. (For those of you who do not know what it means, it is boyxboy/boylove/homosexual... get it now?)

For those of you who want to read the original scanalation click here.

Ok, so there is a niave 15 year old boy who falls for his 23 year old math teacher and they live next to eachother and blah blah blah. Ok, so they kiss and things start happening and the teacher stops and is going to leave and the boy asks why they can not have sex and explains how he read a book detailing how men have sex with other men and the teacher turns it around and says that is a lie and that semen comes from your nose and men have sex by rubbing their noses together... and the boy believed him... XD Seriously! It is so much more hilarious when you read it yourself.

There is this Anime called Kirarin Revolution and, well, it brings the little girly teenie bopper out of me. Reminds me of my younger days. XD Anyways, it's, I'm guessing, based off this group of girls because this is the opening song and, well, they appear IRL during the Opening of the anime performing this dance. Basically, in the openeing, the enter change between the real girls and the anime girls. Both are doing the same dance.

This song is so addicting...

I think I'm either going to tear out my incredibly short hair (thanks to the hairstyle for the wedding) or go prematurely gray. I'm a bridesmaid in my little brother's wedding and... blah! WHY IS HE MARRYING HER IF HE'S JUST GOING TO CONTINUE ACTING LIKE A REDNECK HARDASS THE ENTIRE TIME?!

To this day I think they are making a mistake, they should not be getting married but... What can I do. My brother is the baby and had things handed to him with no questions asked. He got away with more things and his life was not near as hard and difficult as my own. I have many examples I can share on that fact. but this time... this is something he has to learn on his own.

I plan on taking him aside before the wedding and having a talk with him. I want to make sure that he wants to do this, but grr! Why did I have to agree to be in it? (Oh, right, because my soon to be sister-in-law would think I hate her more than I actually do...)

I got family arriving from out of town Thursday so my already tiring and mentally exhausting days will become only more so. Yay... -unenthusiastic-

I can't wait for this to get over with so my normal life and start again...

Oh, and Dorothy, if you read this, I'M SO SORRY AND I PROMISE I WILL BE BACK SOON!

OMG I LOVE THIS ANIME!
( Anime Behind Here! )

This is a group called Opeth and this happens to be one of my favorite songs. I have a story about Opeth and how much I love them. Basically, I have a fear of sleeping with uncovered windows, especially when I'm surrounded by them. Well my grandma's old house up in the wilderness, surrounded by trees, had all the outside walls made of floor length windows and sliding doors. I hated sleeping there, I was always paranoid and I always had to sleep in the living room. Well, one trip I had Blackwater Park with me and I stuck it in my CD player and listened to it, planning on being up most of the night. I was dead asleep by the second song. Ok, you may take this as me being so bored, but really it is not way I slept. Their music soothed me and helped me relax to the point were I could actually sleep. From then on when I went there I had that CD with me and listened to it each night. Weird, I know, but this guys voice? It's just so... I dunno how to describe it.

Ok, so when you get to having babies, and you have toys you have to take apart just to get to the batteries... No matter how pissed off you are at the toy for not coming apart DO NOT PULL AT IT WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT UNTIL IT COMES OFF!

If you do it will not only come off but come flying toward your face and cause you injury... I did that last night. Now I have a bruised lip, sore gums and a migraine from hell.

The migraine still wont go away.

-sighs-

So I got Hubby's mom, brother and nephew coming in today from Tennessee. Which means I've been cleaning ALL WEEK. People might find that amazing due to my small ass house, but the thing is that I'm not a good little housewife... I hate cleaning. -sighs-

Also, I've decided that my Northgale Academy game is not going to happen. Instead I'm going to take it down and turn it into a book series type thing. I'm hoping to make it unique and have it stand out, and maybe ruffle a few feathers in the process. Basically, I'm going to start out with the Underworld Consort. It's briefly mentioned in the game info that the Underworld Consort is immortal, but that was not always the case. I'm starting out with Saren, the Underworld Consort. This is 1,000 years before my game was suppose to take place.

So, before Saren, for as far back as the people can remember, the Consort has always been female, and the Consort is the only Spirit Elemental able to cross between the Real World and the Underworld. Unknown to the whole of society is the fact that the first ever Consort was male. -grins- I wont say more on that front. Would ruin things. So basically this series following Saren is going to deal with the politics of the Gods. Basically, a God is getting bored and fucking with the Real World more than they should, causing wars. And it is up to Saren and Tanak, the God of Death, to fix things.

I also plan that, at the end of Saren's story, that the current Lexorian king is going to start the Northgale Academy, with Saren's permission, of course, because Northgale is rightfully his.

So yeah...

Also, random question... does anyone actually read this? XD

( Work in progress. )

Wanna know what I do when I get bored? ^_^ Just look at the icon I am currently using. I made it. XD

Honestly I dunno how I came up with it. I was just sitting here, playing around with the grunge brushes I have for photoshop and, well, that song popped into my head. I have not heard it in over a year and just got bits like 'rebel' and 'bitch'. I then realized that I had to have the song on my computer since I downloaded all of MM's songs. So I went hunting and was happy to find it rather quickly. So I iconized that particular bit of the song.

Gods, that song takes me back to my IGUN days...

( Toujours Black Application: Female Rivers )

Cross Academy
A Vampire Knight game. Anime/Manga. Japanese PB. On Hiatus.
Inari Kagoshima
Shouta Suzuki
Ichiru Kiryu

Sons of Cain
A post-apocalyptic game with Vampires, Lycans and zombie like creatures called Progeny roaming the world.
Briar Ward

Warlords
A Heroisque game set in an America no longer United. Mutants have the power and want more, causing a constant war zone to surround the citizens.
Camille Daniels

RPG Samples
Inari Kagoshima Log. Female Vampire.
Shouta Suzuki Log. Male Vampire Hunter.
Arden Ashford Thread. Alex Evans PB. Slash. NC-17 Warning.
Briar Ward Threads. Link to Briar Tagged Threads.

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So babysitting? Yeah, it is fun. Well, babysitting my cute little nephew is at least. He keeps my little one occupied and content. Believe it or not, with him in my house it is actually more quiet. ^__^

( They're Playing! )

See, they play so nice together....

( She's so cute! )

Isn't she cute?!

Hehehehe....

I need a new graphics card... So I can take better quality pictures of my WoW characters. ^__^

Ok, so I'm finally to the point where I'm not seeing HTML where ever I look.

This is because I made a game. Talk about coding. -shakes head- It's at Northgale if you wanna take a look. I'm rather proud of it. completely original. Just hoping to get some nibbles soon.

But yeah... I got my Hunter to lvl 61 and my Death Knight to lvl 60. ^__^ Oh yeah, I have no life.

And now I am bored...